MataZero

2009-06-26T07:03:00.001-07:00

"Without Love We Perish"

2009-05-04T11:39:00.001-07:00

You�re a mountain, That I�d like to climb
Not to conquer, but to share in the view
You�re a bonfire, And I�m gathered �round you
Set this old black heart inertia aflame

2009-04-02T01:47:00.001-07:00

"Without Love We Perish"

Broken

2008-11-26T15:19:00.000-08:00

How did it all go so far
How did it all fall away

Into the way of the tides
Always turning
Always making an impression
Never the same

Nothing will ever be the same
And I would never have it,
Any other way
Everything has changed,
And I dont want it back

Im ready to let go,
I just want you to know who I am
Everythings made to be broken,
But I wont let this one fall
Even if its not as I wanted
It how it had to be

Even broken it is stronger
Even in the dark
Things are different now
Yet so much the same

Time has passed us both
And now its time to let go
Time has run its course
And now its time to be free

And this is not the end
Things will never change
And this is not the end
But still the beginning

Because everything is made to be broken
But I wont let this one fall

Outcast

2008-11-26T15:18:00.000-08:00

I dont belong anywhere now
No one can help me anymore
To far gone into the darkness.
My own world of chaos
My own world where nothing is right
Looking left and right,
It is all wrong
Because your not by my side
But Iv done this to myself
And the only way I can come back
Is with the one.

Eternity

2008-11-26T15:14:00.000-08:00

Life is the untold legend;
Lost in a sea of lies;
That lives and dies fast.
For the soul is eternal and pure;
And never needed to life.
But did for the one love;
The undying soul mate.

The mind is simply complex
Easily molded and changed to anything.
But the heart holds the secrets
All life and compaction
Infinitely complex
Eternally yours

The time has come to die again
Return to the light and be reborn
To save life once again
Just to protect you
In your infinite beauty

The beauty of time is seen in your eyes
The gateway to your heart
So innocent and perfect
Love is like an aura around your graceful body
Like an angel
So perfect and there will be another as perfect as you.

The mind is complex
Yet the heart is infinitely complex
Changing, growing, becoming more than it was before
Looking for the one
The one to make it complete
In mind, thought, and personality
You are the one who dose this to me,
Like a dream
You evade me
Just out of my reach
You are the one I want to hold close,
And you are the one in my mind and heart

I may not be like you,
But you are the only one to make me calm,
You keep me in check and under control.
Never felt like this before,
My thoughts now keep me sane,
And you keep me from evil.

In the End

2008-11-26T15:12:00.000-08:00

In the back of mind,
A thought brews inside,
If i were to end it tonight, Would it start new tomorrow,
Is this all a game,
Or is it something we dont even know,
Would it start from the beginning again,
Could i change all my mistakes,
Could i make it all different,
Could i make you know what you mean,
Would it start form the beginning,
Or just end in a haze.

You

2008-11-26T15:10:00.000-08:00

Each time I talk to you,
Something inside seems different.
A peace,
A calm,
A little something I don't feel anymore.
When I talk to you,
Nothing else really matters.
The world stops for a while,
And a heart skips a beat.
When I see you,
I just can't stop smiling,
I just can't seems to find the words.
Always out of arms reach,
Always too good to be true.
Again will you ever know how I really feel,
Or the more likely just pass by like all the rest.

From the Beyond

2008-11-26T15:06:00.000-08:00

Whats it like after, 
How is it that they never really leave,
 Keeping an ever watchful eye. 
Yet we still have the guilt, 
If we did something different,  
If we had said something sooner.

  Everything happened for a reason,  
Even if we never see why.  

Now that your gone, 
We will never forget, 
You thought a lesson,
 But its all ok now.  

Your in a better place, 
And you will never be forgotten, 
We know you have forgiven,  
But its hard to let go.

  You left the impact,
 And you will always be missed.    

Looking from beyond,
 So hopeless to help,
 So hopeless to change.

  I can see it all, 
But i cannot touch,  
I see the depression,
 I see the difference.  

The last words don't matter,
 I see how it is, 
I see that you cared,
 I see how it is.

  Its hard to see you this way, 
Its hard not being able to embrace you,
 To make it better, 
To let you know its ok, 
To let you know Im ok.

  I hold no fault to you,
 And I just wish I could make you happy again.

Secrets

2008-11-26T15:04:00.000-08:00

Never did I mean too,
Never did I think it true.

But you'll never know,
For its my little secret.
Never did I say it was you,
My favorite obsession.
Never did you know, As far as I know,
For the Human mind,
Superiority complex,
I can not read.
I wish i knew what to say, More than the jumble that comes out.
I wish I could say more,
And make you happy.
I never saw it coming,
I never meant too,
I wish I could hold you,
But it may never be.
I loose the words when I see you,
I wish it not so.
To bad it was never meant to be,
To bad I could not say more before,
When it could have made a difference...

Waiting

2008-11-26T15:03:00.000-08:00

There i stand there alone
Waiting with my head down.
Looking at the ground i see,
I see every other cuple.
Never again will that be me,
Waiting for that one to come by,
Standing there waiting,
Others saying that they would be there,
But alone is where i stand,
Waiting.

I never thought this feeling,
That this feeling would come back,
And that it would be so strong,
To be with you,
To be with the one i see in my dreams,
The one that makes me feel safe,
To be with you.

To stand in line with you,
Ill try to always be there,
Waiting for you,
But its never the same.

At The Gates

2008-11-26T14:58:00.000-08:00

There in the night i see,
 I wait there looking out,
 I see that I am not needed, 
But its I that need you.

I see out of the bushes,
 See how different things are, 
The world melts around me,
 Changing all i know.

Now in a desolate place, 
I can see out, 
But still out of reach to change anything.

As my world falls apart, 
I see it shatter,
 I see my daemons coming,
 After my soul again to take me away.

Fight after fight they come,
 For i am only one, 
One without another,
 Fighting for myself, 
To keep the most basic.

Life is what they want, 
But i shall never let go,
 They invade my mind,
 They see what i see.

But still, 
I hold the key, 
And will never give it up.

Although I never win, 
I never give up, 
Forgetting my own, 
To save you,
 To keep you from the hell,
 The hell I see nightly,
 The hell that noone should see.

I stand at the gates, 
But only for you, 
Only to make sure your fine,
 I stand at the gates.

I will never let them take you, 
But its my life to give, 
To make you happy, 
To make it all alright.

I see my world melting, 
I see it shatter.

But noone knows,
Noone knows the pain iv seen.

To my Grandfather

2008-11-12T09:27:00.001-08:00

In this moment,
We all see the dark that has come,
But through the clouds,
The great unknown
We see the light.

The path taken of most resistance,
The way that you were,
The way that we remember,
We can see the troubles,
But overall you were,
We're one to make a difference.

Through the hardships,
In the good times,
No matter what happened,
You were their,

So inviting of others,
Your kindness never stretched,
You were the pillar to us all.

We now sit here in our rooms,
In My room here,
I remember what has happened and look forward.

From the closed door,
With all us here,

In My room,

The mended love,
The troubles forgotten,
We will never forget.

In My room here,
I dwell on what has gone,
And we miss you.

As we drive,
Our lives go on,
But marked forever,
Forever on what happened.

The Blood was shed,
The emotions high,
But we will never forget.

You took the high road,
The path of a Leader.

We have let the fear take the wheel,
But now the time has passed,
And the past as the past,
As we march forward,
All you were,
All I am,
All We are,
We are found and will go on,
But We will never forget.

As you guide us,
With the knowledge that you left.

Status

2008-10-18T10:13:00.000-07:00

The days just roll together into a mess. Happieness cant be bought or found but it just happens

TV (tool as an inspiration)

2008-10-08T12:00:00.000-07:00

I sit here in front of the TV,

Seeing people die.

All that is,

All that their is to be,

And all that comes.

We see people die,

I need to see people die.

From the TV,

The death and destruction,

Desensitizing the truth,

We see the TV.

The desire to live,

We shouldn't need to want it,

The power to survive makes us thrive,

To see people die.

To see the whole world die,

To better us,

Its much better them then I.

All on the TV,

I see people die.

Status

2008-10-08T00:25:00.001-07:00

Is trapped in this nightmare chasing the future and running from the past. Tomarrow never comes and yesterday is the past but the present is a gift

First Post

2008-09-23T00:13:00.000-07:00

Never done a blog before but I'm going to give it a shot, their will be updates mainly from my iphone using a variety of apps ranging from Ping.FM, Yahoo! OneConnect, ShoZu and others as i decide to try them out.

Alot of the uploads will be from everyday life as well as random pictures and creative writing.